Have you ever gotten one of those gifts wrapped in a box and then another and then another and then another and then another….? My husband is notorious for this. He will throw in things like a set of hand weights or maybe a shoe to throw someone off and make it exciting.
One of the most exciting things in my life and one of the most amazing parts about being a parent is getting to unwrap the gift of my daughters–to watch intently as the layers are peeled back to reveal more of the gift of who they are. Their little personalities. For me, it started during pregnancy. I could tell that Kiara was going to be a little spitfire. I first felt her move at 11 weeks and I don’t think she’s stopped since then. That little girl is FULL of life, and has a HUGE personality in a teeny tiny little body. She is just straight up fun. My little Petunia. Khloe was quiet but strong. She wouldn’t kick for hours, then POW, right in the gut. There was a sweetness to her. She was happy being where she was. And from what I can tell so far, that’s who she is. When she smiles, her whole face smiles. It shines out from her sweet spirit. Always happy, ALWAYS smiling, just a good baby. My little Rosebud. They are the greatest joys of my life.
God’s been revealing to me some special little things about Kiara lately, glimmers that remind me even of myself when I was that little. I have always been a learner, eager to know more. I loved school and could never get enough information. I’m starting to see this little trait start popping up in Kiara. She wants to continuously be learning something. She gets bored with the 24 piece puzzles now and goes straight for the 100 piecers. She loves a challenge. She asks me 1000 times a day what letter things start with and is picking up patterns and words and ideas. She is constantly asking for more. It’s so exciting for me as her mom to see her little interests unfold, and I am thrilled to give her all that she asks for–to teach her as much as her little brain wants to know and to watch her get it. It is such a blessing to learn about her and who God made her to be, and to train her up in her bent.
When I read through scripture, I feel just like that three-year-old. I can’t get enough. I want to know as much as my little toddler-sized brain can handle. I want to let it seep into my spirit and take hold of my soul. I want a challenge. It’s in my nature. I want to get to know more about God and His character. I want to pick up the patterns and words and ideas. When it says “mercy,” I don’t want that to be just another word to me as it’s always been. I want to know what mercy means. What grace really means. What love really is. I want to hear the Holy Spirit’s whisper as he peels back another layer of who He made me to be and what He wants to teach me. And when I get to a place that I just don’t understand, I ask Him 1000 questions and He is faithful to answer, just like a parent who wants to give their child good gifts. I’m still like that 3-year-old though, throwing fits and only thinking about myself and whiiiiiiiiiining when He asks me to do something that maybe I don’t want to do. But we’re working on that.
“My son, do not despise the LORD’s discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the LORD disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in” (Proverbs 3:12).
“For the LORD gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.” Proverbs 2:6
“If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously without finding fault. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.” James 1:5
God will fulfill the desires of your heart when they are also the desires of His. Last night, Pastor Jobey talked about how when his kids ask for dinner, he’s always going to feed them dinner. When they ask for dessert, they sometimes get it and they sometimes don’t, depending on the circumstances. If you desire to learn more about God’s nature, to gain wisdom about something, ask in faith and God will never turn you down. He loves you and wants to saturate your little brain with as much of Him as you can handle! Ask away!
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.” Matthew 7:7